This afternoon I had my 6th and final counselling session.
I have been very lucky to receive support from an independent psychologist through my workplace, the last 6 weeks have been a steep learning curve.
I have laughed, I have cried and I have come to some clear realisations.
There is no magic cure, but I now have an understanding of how my mind works, of why I feel and think certain things. I also have some strategies I have been beginning to put into place.
I have learned that I can change, that anybody can change.
The most important message that I have taken from these sessions is that I am like a snowflake, completely unique from any other human being, and that I need to be grateful for my quirks and accept that I will not be able to please everybody.
I have learned when to recognise negative thoughts and have begun to try and change these around, these are only perceptions, not truths. I am trying not to be so hard on myself and have realised that I need to be kind to myself and look after myself.
Walking out of the final session today, with the sun beaming on my face, I felt totally calm for the first time in such a long time. It felt like a breath of fresh air knowing I had the tools under my belt to begin a life of happiness.